17. There are, I think, three kinds of childhood memories …

(Note: Some of the content of this month’s Blog first appeared in an article Mark wrote last year for Gransnet.)

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MARK HAYSOM is the author of two novels – LOVE, LOVE ME DO and IMAGINE. His monthly Blog attempts to make sense of the world for his grandson, Theo – and for himself. Theo is  now fourteen months old.

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Iam walking home beside my sister and she is pushing her twisted bicycle, crying, limping. There is blood weeping from her red-raw, graveled knee. I too am crying – even though it didn’t happen to me. She is six years old and I am five.

I can see it so clearly and yet it is, I think, one of my earliest memories.

But why, I wonder, has this remained with me when so much else has been lost? After all, there was nothing so very unusual here. There would have been countless other childhood scrapes, other falls; certainly there were plenty of other tears.

I remember remarkably little of those early growing-up years – perhaps because mine was something of a dislocated childhood of eight house moves and seven schools – but this and the few other scraps of later memory that have somehow survived are sharp, vivid, precious.

And they have retained – or perhaps they have acquired? – the most extraordinary power.

So it is then that fifty-five years on, not only am I able to see it like yesterday, I can close my eyes and feel it too. I can remember how I felt as I walked small and creamy-haired along that Margate street: fearful, shaken, helpless. It was my sister’s job to look after me – she wasn’t meant to limp and cry.

Other fragments: an Easter egg shaped like a rocket glimpsed in a shop window from the top front seat of a double-decked bus; the fizz of a sparkler as my father emerged from the darkness, cursing a Catherine wheel that refused to light; the comfy lumpy feel of the worn leather seats of my mother’s Austin Seven; the crash of a crate dropped from a milk float, the white spill across the road.

I know that what is true of me is true of others. That we all carry these tiny splinters of memory; sights, sounds, smells. And they are mysterious, miraculous, intact. Potent.

And because there is no story to go with them, because they are too small to share, we hold them close, keep them to ourselves, treasure them. They matter to no-one else but us.

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WHAT THE CRITICS SAY

‘LOVE, LOVE ME DO is funny and heartbreaking’ (Good Housekeeping)

The story of one traumatic day for a small boy. Click to read it now

There are, I think, three kinds of childhood memories. First there are these private jewel-like fragments. Then there are the false memories – those that you have pieced together from familiar family stories and think you should recall. That trip to the zoo when the chimpanzee stole a hat; that time when Granddad kicked the ball and it went over the cliff; that first sun-burnt day on the beach in Spain.

And finally there are those things that, of course, you will remember.

My foot slipping as I climbed the plank in the builder’s yard; the nail going through; the dash to hospital. Of course, I would remember that.

So too this.

One summer’s day in 1961, when I was seven years old, my family left our home. Suddenly. We simply drove away.

My older sister and I were in the back seat of the car, my younger sister – little more than a toddler – was with my mother in the front. My father was silent behind the wheel.

I don’t know how long we drove but I remember sleeping and then waking to find ourselves parked on a country lane next to a field that bordered a wood. In the middle of the field, squatting low in the long grass, was a small grey-white caravan.

That caravan was where we lived for a month or more.

Towards the end of that time, I returned with my father to the house we had left so abruptly. It had been stripped of all our possessions. What had not been taken had been left smashed on the bare floorboards. To this day, I can still feel the crunch of a broken plastic toy beneath my feet.

Yes, of course, I would remember that.

I remembered it so clearly that, more than fifty years later, it became the starting point of my first novel, LOVE, LOVE ME DO. I’d carried it with me all that time. I carry it still. Sometimes in my dreams.

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Three kinds of memories then: precious fragments; shared family stories; those things that, of course, you’ll remember. From such stuff in our young lives, memories that last a lifetime are made, Theo.

And, happy and sad, they shape us, make us what we are.

Which is why, now and during all your young years to come, those who love you are determined to bring so much joy to your life. And so few tears.

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4 Responses to 17. There are, I think, three kinds of childhood memories …

  1. Diana Abela August 28, 2015 at 12:24 pm #

    Your memories, so lucid, must be what drew me to ‘Love Me Do.’ I laughed and cried my way through – so much resonated with me. That’s why I’m reading your blogs today. I felt such an affinity with the characters in the book and had to get to know more about their creator.

    • Mark Haysom August 29, 2015 at 8:17 am #

      Diana, Thank you for this and your other wonderful comments elsewhere. I hope you will also enjoy IMAGINE, the sequel to LOVE, LOVE ME DO. If you haven’t done so already,there are also free short stories to discover. These are on my website – and (for two of them so far) also available as a free Kindle download from Amazon. Thank you again. Mark.

  2. Eve White July 10, 2015 at 2:42 pm #

    …and it is so good that you used this memory in such a positive way by writing the brilliant LOVE, LOVE ME DO.

    • Mark Haysom July 11, 2015 at 8:49 am #

      Thank you, Eve!

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